A little too late.

Sometimes, when you first listen to a song and then you didn't like it. But after a few months or so... you heard the song again.. and you say to yourself..

"Hey this song is nice! So meaningful, exactly sing the way i feel"

Then later.. after awhile you keep repeat the song.. at least five time a day then suddenly the feelings you first had for the song is gone.. as you no longer feel what you used to feel... then you will say

"Gahh.. this song is boring,"

After that, you will definitely go and search for another song.. and the you fall head over heels with the song again and then the whole process repeat again. Then the next time you listen to the first song again... then maybe you will like it back.. or maybe you won't.

This thing basically apply to every other part of our life whether you realize it or not. Whether you want it or not.


I guess i am just a little too late. Cause you are gone by the time i know.

Jingle Bell

Nah, i don't celebrate Christmas but it doesn't hurt to wish anyone right?

MERRY CHRISTMAS

to all my friends who celebrate Christmas and You of course, my blog reader or even just passing by. :D

It's the end, dude.

It's agitating and its reckless,
It roams freely and it bite,
It swift its mood and i feel the change,
It's nothing serious doesn't matter.

Left alone in the room,
Curled my legs, head held low,
Eyes flickering back to the past,
Holding back the tears things never seems to last.

In times, future seem like a quest,
To find the key get through the rest,
No, there is not a single test,
And you don't have to be the very best.

I had yet to adjust myself in,
When things seem so different now,
New society with new surrounding,
Will i ever make it out?

Don't dwell in the past, move on,
Sail your ship leave this town.
Inside me, i wanted to shout.
Wait! I just need a second more.

Don't grasp it too hard,
You need to flap your wings in order to fly,
Life is too tough, stop pushing me!
I need to make my own choice either to walk or to fly.

In the end, there is not a tale to tell,
If you are a bird, you will have to fly,
If you are a fish, you will have to swim,
If you are my child, you will listen to me.

Tell me again, what you say?
Miracle in life? Follow your heart?
Choose what you want? And please no one?
Be courageous and do what you wish?
And finally to be dump aside by friends and family.

Silentune

Titbits

Okay, let's just screw up the "won't be blogging till January". Out of sudden, i think most of you will be feeling as well, holidays can really make us feel like a real slacker, procrastinator, bored with the monotonous life (except few of course) and well yeah and suddenly 24 hours seems a little too bragging. If you are not feeling it, well congratulations.

As you can already guess, i filled my holidays with reading, reading and reading. No i am not reading textbooks. I am reading those kind of book that will help me before i leave my teenage years. I think i needed some help (no, i am not mentally-ill) so i borrowed a few books from friends and i just finished one and starting the second. ( suddenly the lack of motivation, inspiration and the increase in temptation of all sort of technology slowed down my reading progress) And i made a right choice on starting which-to-read-first.

Heard of Sean Covey? Maybe you did, maybe not. But i can tell you his books are really AWESOME, AMAZING. It really tells you how to handle peer pressure, problems you face with families, how to win-win and not lose-win nor win-lose and stuff to organize your life way better. I am seriously regretting for not getting to know this book earlier. If i did my life would have been so so so so so much easier. The most important fact that made his book stands out from the others is (not the cover page) how he instilled lessons in every story plus a lot of humorous incidents. Well, i think i forgotten to mention the book title. Its The 7 habits of highly effective teenagers. Now i am starting his second book entitled with The 6 Most Important Decisions You'll Ever Make. If you have the time, get the book and read it. But if you think your life is completely perfect, you are not having any problems, everything is cool then you can save your time for it. :)

Yup, i think that is enough about that. Let's move on the bigger thing about life. Have you decided where to study, which college, which course, which intake (january, may or july)? No? Well, don't worry, you are in the same boat as i am. Just a few days ago, i went to Mid Valley for the education fair with my siblings and her "friend". Well, instead of having my problems solved, it gotten me more confused than ever. There are a few colleges which offers me full schorlarships for the first year based on my trial result. Yeah, that sounds wonderful but what about the following year? Dam, you should look at the price its nothing less than six or five figures to finish the complete course. Anyway, does anyone knows what is the difference between biotechnology, biomedical, chemical engineering and pharmacy? I haven't got a distinct clue. When i told someone that i might be going for ____________ she said "WOW that's so cool, you are going to work with the CSI?" Weeerrrt??!?? I didn't even know that course would lead me to investigate crimes and murders! =.= Ok let's remove that option.

I know its critically essential to choose the right thing or else i will do something that i hate for the rest of my life. Yeah, but what is the right thing for me and what is not? I know i can't do well in maths, but maybe i got a thing for memorising facts and following guidelines. So you mean i should be doing law?? (Blank*)

Nevertheless, whether you are the same with me undergoing dilemmas, or you already had chosen which college to go to, found your best interest and your hidden talent, positively sure that that is the right decisions and what you want to do in 5 years time, i wish you all the best and good luck with your choice. :)

I'll go back to my dreamland. Miao.

Signing off,
Silentune

Ding don't bell.

Mr.Low
The teacher whom i highly respect and for all his motivational talks which had pushed me over my limits and made me enjoy additional mathematics more than ever.
Thanks and i hope i don't disappoint you. :)

It didn't look like i was going to have a happy ending.

I have to admit, the account paper was tough (especially the second question) The thought of having a celebration after account paper fluctuate away as i sat there scribbling what i had learnt for the past two years on the papers. But to no avail. I sighed deeply filled with insurmountable regrets. I looked down at my watch, to be dismay i realize i had spent one hour solving that question. An hour wasted. I looked out from the sullen hall. Some people already gave up, packing their bags, sitting at the hall chatting happily. Probably about the do's on the three and a half month holidays.

"Concentrate now," my mind suddenly alert me.

Right, right. And then i scribbled away.

11 years, past like lighting strike on the sky. It's gone and it will never return. For the past 11 years, i had many wonderful memories from standard 1 till form 5 yet some painful ones. But that is a must in life. Life is not a smooth line. Its curvy filled with thorns and sharp rocks along. Who likes the feeling of being pierced anyway?

Yesterday marked the end of my school chapter in life. Marked the end of some friendship for eternity. (well at least we still got facebook) And marked the beginning of an ending.

Throughout the years, i learnt to grow, to understand, to see things in different views. But one of the uptmost essential thing that i learnt about life is that nothing can last forever. Friends who came, left. But there are a few friends who stayed till the very end.

To those who had been my friends, thanks for all the wonderful memories. Screwed the rest.
After all, i myself do believe that some people come into our life hold a special meaning. Either to give supports, encouragements or lessons.

To those who stayed till the very end through the thicks and thins,
Thanks a lot to be there and suffered throughout the journey. But from what i heard, nothing come easy and a friendship who had overcame the tidal waves and survived will become stronger that before. Well, at least that's what i hope for.

And to Y, the person who changed me, made me realize that i cannot continue to be what i was used to be, (emo-ing, oversensitive, very very unconfident etc)
Thanks x100.
Yeah, i should just appreciate what i have now instead of longing for the pasts. Thanks counselor.

That's all for this post.
Check up for January post cause i won't be posting anything else this month. :D
And to you, (yeah you the one reading this)

Have a happy holidays! enjoyed yourself to the possible limits

Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends. ~Richard Bach.

Signing off,
SkyJuice